worry later and just be in the moment.

my sched this sem certainly sucks since it displaces time in a crappy sequence. i cant do much about it but get used to it. so far im surviving. still i think i'll starve and eventually lose weight. aside from that, i know all the paperworks will come tumbling down once again and the sleepless nights would be sure to follow. next sem's line up of professors are also creating weird imageries in my head.

overthinking sucks.

im working my way to just living in the moment. id think about the past and the future but i dont have to worry about it. its like a damn vice. worrying is my vice. that's why i get "anxiety" written on my ojt evaluation. i dont want to be too stressed and worried over fleeting things. i'll get an early death sentence, if i get stressed out over little things.

i've realized that tiny changes have been happening to me and its all good as long as i dont go over to the dark side.

kidding aside, i want to promise myself to just enjoy my life, through great times and in overly crappy times. ups and downs are sure to happen and even in the darkest of days there are lessons to be learned.

stay in the present, pray for the past and work for the future. things need not be complicated.



as much imc, thesis and other subjects pose a threat to my social life, i know things will be better :D

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things are shaping up

this year is a lot different from the routinary stuff that i've been doing for the past few years.

for one thing the swine flu aka ahini is making the school's schedule change. im not really prepared to go to school. last week, me and nico missed our photography class since we thought classes would start at 3 hahahaha. its the firs time it happened.


anyway, i learned from some of the incidents that happened before the school year started. sometimes it seems like a bad joke coming true but it is reality. things are a little bit different from before and im relishing the "alone" time i get from it.

i didnt get to enjoy my summer that much. yes, bumming around means enjoying free time. now i feel rushed since things are happening at a rapid pace. you need to go with the flow of things and im floating just fine. i dont want to care that much anymore. i want to focus on myself and what i can do.

this year is different. things will be better :D i will get better!


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just keep on going!

sometimes its just weird when people expect you to be ahead of what they're thinking.

im not a mind reader. i get lost in my own world too.

its not like i can always be a step ahead of things.

i just dont want to be scolded at for things im not aware that i should be doing.


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patience and understanding

by alex noriega

maybe being a robot would be cool :D

finally, real FREEDOM

i've written many entries about this but somehow i still feel its not worth posting. less bitterness, more relaxed, i feel that now i can write decently.


im very thankful the it didnt rain so much last friday. the Lord is good :D. i enjoyed that day very much since it helped me release all the tension and stress that i desperately wanted to escape. i learned that i need to be stronger so that i wouldnt ever feel so down like that again. people wont be as nice outside. i need to speak up and not let the anger get to my head.

there are people who are going to get to you. those people do exist. those people can make your life a living hell if you just sit around and take a beating from them. i did that and i ended up the loser in the game called ojt (crap, that's so cheesey). i dont want to be that kind of person. i dont want to be helpless and feeling all the negativeness when i know i could stand up and defend myself. sometimes its not a question of being nice to someone or doing the right thing or even being the better person. you cant feel empowered and confident if you let people step on you.

it wasnt really the happiest training ever but at least i know now how to prepare myself for whats to come.


on a positive note, im very thankful that i still have a week to enjoy myself before school begins. its an unexpected blessing that i'll be sure to make the most out of. i guess i'll clean me and my mom's room, read a book and practice my guitar hero skillz. aside from that i'd have to catch up with my friends too.

on top of that, im very happy that im getting inspired again. there's lot of stuff that i saw that i'd want to do. hopefully, i would be able to develop my own style of drawing and produce some cool stuff out of it.

i got myself back and hopefully, i would learn from the mistakes that i made.


my mom got me a skin for my laptop hahaha it looks brandnew as much as it is a hand me down. im just thankful im able to have such things.

i just need to learn and create an output :D



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